Ok I don't know why I chose that title, it jumped into my brain and wouldn't leave. So I'm gonna pretend it was planned and has something to do with my logic being hijacked and pillaged.
I've had a couple of sleepless nites lately, all my own doing I'm afraid. I took something a friend told me and blew it all out of proportion in my tiny mind. Not entirely sure why, but I got angry at what I was told, not with my friend mind you but very much with myself, I couldn't believe that I was going through a roller coaster of emotions, (you can fill in all your favorites if you like) I'll just add these ones to get you started; sadness, anger, guilt, jealousy, a healthy smattering of depression, that fluttery sort of feeling you get in the pit of your stomach and oh yeah, a sudden bit of loneliness.
Now what's really annoying is, that nothing has changed in my life, or in most part anything that directly relates to or effects me. But effected I feel. Now I bet you all want to know what this heinous crime was, well I'm not gonna tell you, coz its no ones business but my friends and its not anything major or earth shattering either.
One thing I now know, I left out one other emotion, fear. I think I'm scared that our friendship is going to be over and none of it will be down to her. I've been there through the same sort of thing before and this is no different, but this time I feel threatened by the change and I have no right to and let me add no control over how I feel either.
Now before you jump in with something like you hated your father or something similar, you can forget the analyzing I've done it to myself to the point of distraction.
Its those bloody Pirates I tell you, stole a mans logic.
argh be hearty my humans.
PS More self pity as it comes to hand.
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