Slow good to see you.

A total of three posts last year and we're into the last day of Feb for two twelve. We'd be into March already but for a small glitch in the Gregorian calendar, shame we are not still using the Julian one cos it would only be the 16th of Feb and I'd look a lot cooler.

Something I've learnt about myself is, the busier I seem to be the more I contribute to thing I usually have no time for. Last year I completed a 365 day blog in which I was able to post a creative work daily without missing a single day. But if I was to write a simple list of things I have to do in the next month then I don't have the time to get half of it done.

At this exact moment in time I'm sitting at the keyboard and studying this weeks UNI readings, or I should be but I'm writing to this bloody blog which I just found sitting there waiting to be writ in.

Well I guess I'm going to so busy that I'll get a lot posted in the rabbits hole this year. lets prove that theory wrong and say no more about it.

Be human my pigeons

Rabbit.

wow

I vaguely remember a blog I started, but then it just fades awaay

A little light

Hard to believe its been four years (15/01/07) since Maton left us and that would make it three and a half years since Oscar came into my world.

I thought of him yesterday and had a little cry to myself, but I just look at Occy and he makes me smile. So hard to juggle such differing emotions, it was harder a couple of years ago and I guess it will be easier in a couple more but its still not a feeling I like to experience too often.

In the four years since I had to say goodbye to Maton there have been wars fought, people lost in flood and fire, in earthquakes and other madness. I watch it on the news and get more desensitized by the day, but I cry for a little dog who loved me without prejudice or expectation. More people should try to be like dogs and I may just start to like them too.

Now go away and stop bothering me, bloody humans.

Happy new .............

Yep Yep Yep and welcome to the apology blog.

For some reason I can't just sit down and dash off a few words every couple of days for my legion of expectant minions, minions who hold their breath waiting for my next flurry of wise words. Unfortunately all those who held their breath are now dead from asphyxia. Ah well, (please see wanted ad for devoted followers, no experience) those not smart enuf to take a sneaky breath maybe shouldn't be part of my audience.

Do you know what the real funny thing is, well do you, huh, well I'll tells ya, for the past 72 consecutive days I've been cheating on you, I've been posting religiously of my other blog http://onelousybuck.blogspot.com/

So far I haven't missed a day all though its got real close to the deadline on several occasions so it proves I can actually follow through on stuff.

Anyway enuf of the confessional.

Stay human

Not gunna work is it.

We all know its true, its just not going to fly. I am mentally unable (or possibly unstable) to sit down and write a regular blog. So then why have I decided to start another one called Another day another dollar (find it here) http://onelousybuck.blogspot.com/ and the amusing part is that it has to be posted to daily, as in every freakin day. So as with everything else in my life I'll apply the 'in denial' filter and whoosh there it goes, not a problem any more.

So back in the real world I have started to build a picket fence out the front of 'Crumbly Casa' AKA my house. Ill post the progress pictures as I go (you believe that do you)

Well here's a couple to get you started, Ugly Fish on the front porch and a part of the frontage after I started to rip out some bushage before I realized that I should take foto's.

And thats all your getting my fine feathered fiends.

Until next time

Rabbit

The naughty corner of the Australia

Hey humans,

I've been a bad rabbit. I was just so on form today, I had friends tell me enough and I was so proud of my achievement. I couldn't help it, every comment people came out with I had a really funny and oft derogatory comment that just went so well with it.

I gave it to the short, the smart, the tard, the pretty. god I was even self effacing. and it was funny even those who were angry at me had to laugh and that made them angrier at me and themselves for encouraging me and then I'd laugh and...

Earlier in the week I had one of the worst migraines that I have suffered in ten years, it knocked me rotten and I was worn out and dopey for a few days. (keep it nice, I do the funny stuff) then last night I slept the sleep of angels (not the motorcycle revving, screaming and yelling type sleep) the sleep of fat cherubs and clouds, the smell of sun warmed perfumed nubile.. sorry drifting here. the sleep of the just. And today I woke up a born again arshole.

If your looking for me, I'll be standing in the naughty corner.

Truly a great day.

Be human and I talk to you again.

Rab

Just for the sake of it

For no other reason, I'm gonna post something.

This has been a milestone week for me,

• 1st post of 2010
• 10 years at a company where I said "I'm only be here for 3 months" and a company that I repetedly say I'm outta here.
• My best friends have been married for 21 years

No one has hit me or anything whilst I go about being angry and very yelly. and boy have I been a yelly person. TV annoys me, Newspapers annoy me, the blinked ignorance of management annoys me and children....

And you Humans, you all annoy me.

Cya.

Consistancy, cant spell it cant do it.

I promise and promise but I just can't do it. You know I want to but its just not in me.

Another bunch of months has passed and I'm trying my best but blogging is hard I tells ya, damn hard.

I've even logged in and thought of some witty repartee, but shit it sounds pretentious and I scrub it. (thats because you matter to me, keepin it real my brothers) And now I know why.

Lilydale yes glorious Lilydale (not the arsehole of the universe, but you can see it from here Lilydale) Since I moved here everybody says oh you poor thing, so far away from everything, too far to visit, too far for you to come and see us. FOR FUCK SAKE its ten minutes from my old house and that was close enough. Its suburbism. Suburb bias. Lilydale is the pits, and we're not talking race car cool pits here, we are talking armpit greasy stagnant drippy hair laden pits.

I'm now a social outcast, a pariah. not quite Marina Pariah but still a pariah (how many puns can I fit in you ask) even though I josh through the tears I'm a broken man. My friends no longer invite me around, don't talk about me to their friends in case they find out, "he's from Lilydale" well I don't care any more, not fussed, not worried, not perturbed by the blinked pig ignorance of those from more affluent burbs. you can all go root a festering sock full of dog puss.

Well of course not ALL of you my dear friends, this rant does not reflect in any way my dearest, closest, bestest buddies who haven't forgotten me. I'll leave it to you to sort out who is in which camp and the rest of you, well start a rootin.

Human elsewhere, I'm not listening.

Rab

Ever Diminishing Circles.

Hey look at me, Not even six months have past and I'm writing again.

I made a promise to a close friend and also sometime blogger that I will contribute more frequently and she will do the same. I must admit that she has been writing far more often than I and to several different sites.

Now I cant add too much more to the house reno saga as we really haven't done much more, outside of living in our house and loving every moment of it. Sundays have been nicknamed the sunday sessions and we try to invite different friends up each week for a feast, a few drinks and the chance to save the worlds problems over the diner table.

Oscar the super pooch is as you can see taking everything in his stride and has not been stressed at anytime during the upheaval. Even though he gets his regular walks I don't think he gets enough exercise and can usually be found in a position like this. can anyone say animal cruelty

The next major task will be to organize the rear yard so that we have a small area to entertain over summer, eventually we want to put in a wood fired oved so we can do breads and pizza and roasts and stuff like that.

Shit this is starting to sound like a jolly nice little blog, not like me at all. well we also plan on putting in a killing room in the basement and I've already got rid of the welcome mat and have replaced it with a custom FUKOFF one.

Well toodles I have to go now.

Dont be strangers

Rabbit.

Vote My dog

I'm now out for some shameless promotion for Oscar, wonderful dog 2.0 needs some help to get himself over the line.

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Slowly Staggering

Ah Huh, its wonderful July and onto my second post of the year already.

The very fast 6 month update: we moved into the house in March, boy was it a trial to get it to an acceptable condition that I would be happy with.

We had to strip every inch of paint off the walls and ceilings, it was painted with a coating called calcimine. [Let me tell you about calcimine, it was made by the devil to slap a bit of color around Hades. Modern paints do not stick well to it and it doesn't stick well to the surfaces it was originally painted on, if you try to paint over the shit with a roller full of nice new paint you end up with a paint roller that looks like you rolled it into a bag of crisps. To remove calcimine from a wall, you scrap it off with a putty knife and it flakes off in small sheets or crisp confetti like pieces, once its all off, you then wash everything down by hand with bucket loads of warm industrial strength sugar soap and then wash that off with cool water. It took four days to remove it all from our timber slated plaster walls and 10 foot high ceilings, if you remember back in January we had a raft of 40 degree days and the worst bush fires in our brief history. those four days were the ones we chose to rid our house of Satan's wall paint]

After removal of said calcimine we then filled and sanded all the nice clean surfaces which made our bare timber floors into a thick gelatinous primordial pink brown ooze of flaked paint, plaster dust and fed with bucket upon bucket of water, once that had dried during the heat wave, also became painful to remove.

That was the worst of the work, we then had the chance to get creative all over our houses arse. we ripped out a wall from the second bedroom and made it open into the old kitchen which is now the new lounge room because I needed to use the old lounge room as the main bedroom, stay with me it is very usable now. then after all the prep work was done, everything got painted in three tones of the same color paint, carpet was laid nearly everywhere and new light fittings started to appear.

As I said we moved in in eary March, but sadly there is still much to do but most of it will have to wait untill the piggybank is not so annerexic and I regain the will to DIY.

Oscar the wonderdog will have been with us for two years later this week and is still going great, he adapted to the move like a champion and didn't even think about giving it his own little cosmetic touches (oh you know what I mean, piss all over the place to mark his teritory) I still tear up for Matey but I dont think that will ever change and it certainly doesn't take anything from how I feel about Oscy.

Thats all I'm squeezing out for you all today but I will be back so soon you'll think its the same post.

Be human somewhere and leave me out of it.

Rabbit

Off and Running

WooHoo, just look at me now, its only the first week of Jan and I'm Blogging.

Starting this week I'm no longer going to be the angry man, for me its a life of optimism and gaiety. Well we'll give it a good week and take it from there, not that I think a week of niceness will be hard but times are tuff and stressful and I don't want to disappoint anyone by setting the bar to high.

I'm looking forward to moving into me new house, although I do think we might have bought the wrong one. But we have cans of brand new free paint and lots of ideas for the garden/outdoor areas and I'm going to experiment with a hydroponic setup for herbs and leafy edible things, so a truly wonderful time is just ahead.

Living at home with a (how shall I say this)  elderly parent can be testing, but being the new me I'm on best behaviour. Usually I just scream and rant and cause a scene, but now I'm all light and sweetness and I can see that evil witch of a mother of mine for who she really is, its been her all along, I'm not a bad son its her I tells ya. I do very love her, but its only the fear of a new best friend in the same cell as me called bubba that stops me wacking the old dame and claiming my inherentance. (just kidding, tra la la la la, all light and sweetness)

OK I can't be spoiling you all with all this verbage and insight so its time to put keyboard to bed and say,

Catch ya Humans.

Rabbit

  

This Ones Over

OK OK, I don't need to hear it,

This was the worst year for me writing anything, especially this blog. I am closing this year off and marking it down as a bit of a fizzer, Oh there was the buying of a house but since settlement isn't till Jan next year we wont count it.

It is my personal challenge to myself to write at least once a month or better and also put some content on my web page. I also promise to do some learning and do more airbrushing or some other creative endevour. So you see I am going to participate.

So my little minions, 2008 id dead and burried long live 2009.

CYA next year

Rabbit.

Zero to Blog in under 12Mth's

Yeah yeah yeah,
It's not only a beatle song you know (waddya mean who 's the Beatles)-(dont like em much anyway)

Man, again I say I cant believe its been so long, July last year, shiiiit.
I vow not to let my blog get passed twelve months old without writing, so with this post I just beat the time limit and declare myself, disciplined.

And what have I done in all that time. Well to be honest I'm not really sure. Laughed, cried, spat, danced, Rode, ate, drank (goes without saying) spent, worked.

I did buy a new car. Well I went out to buy a new car but came back with the same model as I went to buy, but pre-owned. saved a shit load and its a goodly machine but new it aint.

Oh yeah its a Proton Jumbuck. A Proton Jumbuck. P.R.O.T.O ah forget it, its a little ute.
and it has a canopy on the back and its as I said, goodly. Oscar, remember him, dog 2.0 quiet likes it, just him and me in the front, tooling down the highway, not a care in the world. (he said that not me) barkin at dogs less fortunate (him not me) standing on the dash board, (again him not me ) waving at ladies (me not him) them waving back (at him not me)

I forgot most of what I had previously posted and in was quite sad to read back over my last couple of posts. I haven't forgotten Matey in any way and not many days pass without me or one of my close friends talking about him in some way, I'm so very glad to have found Oscar and I love him very much but Maton just gouges a hole in my heart everytime I think of him.

Having said that I wouldn't trade this little shit for anything (Oscar that is) He is naughty and funny and so much his own man. He fell on his feet finding me and I found a best mate when I needed one most, no matter how bad a day I've had, I just have to look at him and I'll smile or break out in a laugh at his expression or stoopid actions. He does it on purpose.

Now before you accuse me of getting all soppy and wet, as always its only for the four legged variety and not for any bipedal type I come across in my daily grind. and as always I still disprove of all humanity with a passion.

I'm trying to think what has happened in the last 12 months, Wars are being fought, people are drowning and getting crushed, elections are being corrupted/ignored/manipulated. We had one you know, an election that is, I think the right man won, well it was who I voted for and he hasn't broken anything yet so thats a good sign. So basically not much has changed in the real world.

In my world, now lets see.............. Aw come on its been 12 months, something must stand out. Did I tell you I got a new car, well not entirely new.

There will be another one I promise. until then

Rabbit.

Rabbit. A new begining.

Hi Humans,
Again a lot of time has passed and things slowly evolve.

Its been 6 months since Matey died and there hasn't been too many weeks when I haven't cried for him/over him/about him. Theres been a house move, an attitude change, a nite course in Airbrushing and oh yeah, last Sunday I got a dog.

This little guy is a pre-owned puppy like Maton was, a run away we expect but no one claimed him. He ended up at the pound and was on death row until a rescue service took him and placed him in foster care, I saw his photo once and knew he might need me.

The bonding is taking its time but everyday he settles in a bit more, it must be hard on the little guy, his own house then the pound then six weeks in foster care and now here. I sure he is expecting another move. But we'll love him to pieces and he'll take control of us and have us jumping through hoops in no time.

I didn't want to move house but in hindsite its been a blessing, threw out a lots of detritus; years of dragging around crap that was of no use to man or beast. This house is smaller and its taken some time to make it feel mine but all in good time.

I get the feeling that this is the year for "slowly" my brain is having a bit of a sea change and as everything just drifts by I grab onto whats needed and let the rest wash past. well thats how it feels, usually I chop and change at the drop of a hat and impetuously decide to do or buy without rhyme or reason. Short attention span (or alzymers)

Well my minions, I given you way to much of my life. So until next time

Adios muchachas

Rabbit.

My weakly update

OK so a week is four months in my world.

If you've been following, last time its was sad days at Rabbits hole. if you haven't been following please keep up. (Warning don't keep reading if you don't want to cry)

On Monday (15Th of Jan) we went back to the Dog Doc's, Matey was very quiet last nite and still hadn't eaten anything, what little bit of water he had he brought back up. The test results from Saturday were devastatingly, today's ultra sound was a knife in my heart.

I knew before we went there what the probable outcome would be, but as always I just kept thinking that everything will sort itself out, it's that worry about nothing that's got me to where I am today.

I was given two choices, I could take him home and let him pass away in two or three days or say goodbye to him how. Lets see. die of starvation and pain and have him for a few days longer or kill him right there. Now humans, will you please listen to me, I cant say this any clearer. don't love things, they'll only hurt later.

After a bit more discussion his Vet Danielle said she would leave us to ourselves for as long as we liked and I'm not sure if Maton knew what was happening, but I'm sure he wanted to be feeling better. I'd taken Matey there in his bestest blanket and he sat on that for about half an hour or more while we talked and cuddled and cried, I'd like to think he gave me a final kiss and permission to end his pain but he just lay there quietly while I stroked and kissed and talked to him.

I couldn't be there for that last moment, I so wanted to be there at the end and say goodbye but I knew that i couldn't and asked Danielle to call me in when he was gone. She wrapped him up so beautifully and tight in a piece of cheese cloth and then his blanket and brought him outside into their gardens to where i was, I couldn't talk and she said goodbye to me and Maton and said to come back and see her when I was ready.

I couldn't see him but I felt his outline through the cloth, I stood there cradling him for several minuets before we got into the car and drove to my mums house.

Maton is buried under a large tree at the back of her property and faces the house and gardens. I go to see him and talk to him each week and it hasn't gotten any easier, I still miss him like you couldn't imagine, there is so much guilt at what I could have done earlier but Danielle tries to assure me that there was no knowing. I still cry.

RUN FAST IN HEAVEN MY LITTLE MAN.

Little bit of good, Very much bad.

G'day Humans.

In regards to my last post, I did the good thing. I actually went outa my way to be nice to people. In my job I far exceeded my duty to customers , sourcing product on my own time and using my own petrol. And in the real world I smiled, I was pleasant, I, well to be exact I was excellent to others.

But, boy does that little blue bird of happiness shit on ya when you don't expect it.
As you've gathered from my blog I can tolerate people, I may even love a few, but I really love my boy. Now before you start thinking hmm, boy lover, stop right there. If you don't know, my boy is an eleven year old puppy named Maton.

Matey has been feeling a bit off for a couple of days and I took him to the dog mechanic on Friday for a quick service. After the preliminary poke and prod they were none the wiser and recommended I whip out the plastic and pay for a few blood test.

At just two and a half hundred who could say no, especially after already shelling out a G for a knee reconstruction seven years ago and six and a half biggies for a fractured tooth last November, they new it was a cert.

Yesterday I had one of the worst phone calls one could ever have. I'm sorry Mr Rabbit but!

Looks like all those years of hard drinking have taken their toll, Maton's liver and kidneys are giving out. I've never cried so much in my life, I rang all those who mater and cried some more, they've all been over and hugged and kissed him, I think everyone of them told him to stop being stupid and it'll all be alright. Tomorrow we have some more tests, an ultra sound to see whats broke. The Doc's warned me not to get my hopes up. Still crying.

This is the reason I keep telling people not to love anything living. it just fucking hurts too much.

Oh it's Nice Week 2006

Christ, it's been a big year for my blogg'n, as you can tell. This will only be my third post for the year and I'm sure I only did my chrisy one like yesterday.

Ah well, anyway unfortunately its that one week of the year when I choose to be nice to people, (and me working in retail too) So I am not going to bag out all the misserable son's (and daughters) of K9 maternal parentage. The ones who also hate christmas and all it stands for, but still keep up the pretense with all that 'peace on earth, good will to man' carp. (I'm being nice)

I hear that this is actualy the season to suicide, more lonely guys and gals top themselves this time of years due to the pressure of not being able to provide, or just can't bear to see the gathered outlaws, or even have exactly zero of the population to share the big scam with.

So in my week of yule nice-itude, I want all of you, in a very Bill and Ted kind of moment, to be excellent to each other. I know I will.

Merry seasonal wishes and goodbye 2006 The Fat Rabbit.

Valentine's Day Massacre

Yep, time to feel sorry for ones self again. Just me and the pooch at home again no chocolates or flowers too-ing or fro-ing between persons of an opposite persuasonage.

Being a human hater has a decidely shitty side when certain calendic events take place, you know the ones; birthdays, christmases, saturday nights, or basically any day with an 'A' in it is a bit of a bummer when you want to do that romantic lovey dovey horizontal hopontopofus kinder thing.

A rod for my own back is what I'm hearing from those reasonably close to me, not close enough to do the hot and squishy of course and its not actually a rod i'd be wanting I'll tell ya, I'd be after a Rodette just to get things straight (when I can't actually get things straight if ya following)

Think I might still buy some flowers and chockies anyway, never know your luck, stranger things have happened and whats the worst that could happen? flowers wilt and the dog eats the choc's and I fall asleep in front of the nonsence box.

Just another days to cross off the calender anyway.

Buy Humans.

And again we start with an "its been so Long."

It's been so long since I posted, (again)
But you know what the funny thing is, everyday I am doing something and/or I think of something that I want to add here, I write my self a little note or even compose a full page to add when I get back to my computer but I never actually Blogg it.

Its a shame that you can't read my mind as I have a very complex, witty and inspiring virtual Blogg going on in there. Yeah, all right it’s behind that very dark cob-webby scary human hating lump of everydayness that I battle with, but it is in there.

It’s quite beautiful actually, very light and airy; a bit 60's hippy floral if you will, children on swings, dogs running around. OK OK there are no children. Repeat, there are no children. But there is dogs, puppies as far as the eye can see. Sorry got a bit lost then, coming back to reality now.

Aww no, now we're in the dark bit, choppers; I can hear choppers, its still 60's I can tell by the music, but its so hot. Running, there's lots of running, I dont do running this is really turning into a nightmare, its China Beach meets Bambi. see what happens when you bring children into it.

Deep breaths, deeep breaths; we're all good here everything OK. fwew that was close, had a bit of a Nam flashback thing going on, which is strange as I'm not old enough for 'Nam' and too old for Bambi as it turns out.

Time to leave the brain world me thinks, I shouldn't meddle with things I know nothing about, mr computer wouldn't scare me like that, he's my freind, he's warm and hums to me.

They tell me I have to go lay down now.

Later People.